.Friday, October 9, 2009 Y
没有熊猫的日子,第1天
Finally its a new chap of my life.
I've been complaining to you during these 3years.
Now its time i complain to my blog.
Thanks for letting me know how much i love you.
Yes we may never go where we want to & spent time like we've always been
i can really save $ from now.No more $2 salary.
No more worries abt her sms-ing me without me replying n she bian zhui
Have to let go already.
Alright.Jus came back from nearby to settle some things
Pass by thomson plaza,& pass by e playground behind where me & her play swing
And a night when she cried on my shoulder to ask me take her back
Yes i agreed.There was really nice memories there.
Bought kfc back. But jus left it on e table.
Know what? i saw PAN LING LING & Her Husband.
I whisper to myself. "dear,u wan eat yr shrooms burger?" silly isnt it?
Like kena some love poison like that.
Went NTUC help sis buy mash potato. Cause she cant have solid food for these few days
Everything i saw is also mushroom type. got so qiao meh?
Life will be hard to live on from now on. But. i know i have to.
She has her own life. She prefers her current life. With frens no bf.
I shall respect her decision.
I realised i even love her til i dont mind abt her past anymore.Not even abit.
I just wish if she comes back one day i'm there. so she wont be lonely anymore.
Yes XXP is right. i am jus trying to protect her too much til i make myself so xinku
XXP: look at her, u say she sad, bt she stil can go out n enjoy u down here cry she know meh?at night u cry til slp. she also wont know also cant feel.Did she auto asked u to meet or go out aft u brk? No lor. The one she thought of is her frens.Why?She already intend to use her frens to 4get u.Y b so silly?
ME: *Silence(Bt actually,my heart broke agn)
XXP: aiya,dont know what to say u lar,console u til tot u ok le.den afterawhile
u agn shield her. I in sch also pek cek. U dn nit so shang xin lar, when time flies, u think she wil still remember u meh?the feeling wont be there alr.so dont think she'll come back.
Y does this XXP always have to be so str8..Cannot see pple heart alr break meh.
Sigh...Afterall she's e one tt makes me understand whats true love. Thou those sms i sent her she nvr reply i know what i said hits her heart. Tts y she dont wan to reply telling me its true to prevent me from being more sad. sigh.
I'm always wondering,does our memories not enuf to bind ur tgt ma?
Mayb what she wants is me to get out of her life.but she jus cant say it out.
i think for a very long time.i wont watch movie or eat out.
By e time i think i'm drifting away from this world.(ok lar.don say world, SG jiu hao)
Now is only work,home SLEEP.
Recently,i've been chasing this 93.3fm story telling drama.Really touching
Its call dno what "hai you ai" de. Its abt one family wit a kids with smth disablity or smth. very touching.
Will u miss calling me dear? or u have not realised tt u alr lost 1?
As pple say,truth is always cruel.Yes i think its time for me to leave.
written on 11:47 AM
