Its the end.
written on 9:04 AM

Are u still missing me?
Do u still wonder how i spent my days without u?
Or what u told me was jus a lie to cover everything?
Are u really happy now?
Do i still pop out?
Will u still accidentally scroll to my name on yr phonelist? thinking u're smsing me?

I doubt so..........
written on 12:56 PM

Will u be thinking of me when u're alone?


I just hope u'll always rmb for once u know this guy which is me


I've fulfil my task.To let u 4get how others treat or neglect u & u gt yr new life.


Jia you k?





GOOD NEWS! dad n sis is planning to make e down payment for our new upcoming car!


woo!! how i wish tomolo i can have license.Shall update e car pic which we saw.

No more buses! no more taxi! =D

This is e link : http://www.sgcarmart.com/new_cars/newcars_photos.php?CarCode=10685&CUR=2#P

written on 8:40 PM

Is there someone that still puts ring into his mouth & pass to u?
Is there someone that still buy u your fav famous amos cookies?
Is there someone that u'll wan to hug & nvr let go?
Is there someone that u can "sa jiao" to?
Is there someone that still bullys u? & pamper u aft tt?
Is there someone that u can end yr post with a *i miss u or *i love u?

Wil my shadow appear bside u when chinese new year comes again?
Will the number 12 still meant anything to u?


Are u there?
E girl that's so innocent & easily satisfied by small lil surprise.
written on 4:19 PM

I realised when sleeping dream of u.
I actually smile cuz i see the "u"
I can only see that when i'm sleeping.


Aniwae. Looking forward to my off day.
Gng peh ky pub with sher
Woo.....
Shall endure remaining days b4 can play..
written on 5:00 PM

Have u ever wonder why i can suddenly stop smsing u?
Do u feel my name wil appear on yr hp agn?

I told u abt me forgetting abt my hp.
I do hope when i reach hm.my hp wil b flooded by yr msgs.but it did nt.
N i dn feel heartache @ all.cuz dis is what i've expected too.

Til now u dont know how u've been become & what others think.
U can say they r wrong only yrself knows what is e truth.
U've become realistic & materialistic.
U always think what u're having now is what u want.
Yes.What u want now is what u wish for
But. U've lost pple that are true to u for life
Is he true to u? U yrself knows
Is bear true to u? U know it too.
Yet u choose to support what they hv created for u
An imaginary world.
What i say here now,u may damn me.
Whether u wil realised or not no one can b sure of.
What other thinks may not be e truth too
Only u yrself knows.
Yes i do miss u. Brenda Yeo.
& u know which brenda yeo i miss.
Tts y. these few days has been a quiet day & response from me.cuz i already know
tt brenda yeo has alr gone long ago.
Or maybe All along.u've been creating a imaginary world for me.
I'll jus hv to accept unwillingly.
written on 9:37 PM

Know what?I actually pass by that place again. =) special feelings thou. but.yeap =)
M i really out of yr mind already?
Are u feeling e same without me?
Or are u again being influenced by things arnd u?
I'm no longer with you.
No one wil be warning u b4 hand anymore
U've to b mindful.

One thing which enlighten me today.
A couple c/in today.Know what? the girl is mute.but the guy still loves & tc of her
Yes.They come for pleasure but yeap they dont care how others judge n look at dem
Why?Cause they love each other. =)
Why bother about how other pple thinks abt YOUR relationship? Jus becuz dey say u & he/she is not suitable? Tt mus end? Jus becuz pple say He/She cant gif u what u want NOW.does tt mean all these have to end?

I've found my goal.
& soon. Everything will be realised & shown what u have missed out on.
I'm confident ITS REALLY NEAR.
You'll see e difference July 2010. Guys.Watch dis month.

While on my way to work dad ask me:

Dad: When r u getting yr license?y one day drag one day -.-
Me:Silence
Dad: Faster get license lar den i can hand over my car 2 u & drive
Mom: Silence (MEANS SHE AGREE TO LET ME DRIVE!!) WAHAHAHA
Dad: Huh?faster get license take my car & join yr friend lor

All along dad wanted to hand over e car to me and thanks dad. For always doting on dis useless son quietly all these years. =)

Yes.I do miss the panda 120506.
and yes. Its year 2006. Now its already 2009 =)
written on 8:33 PM

Where are u?
Are u missing me? Do u miss e feeling of we hugging each other tight?
Do u miss my shoulder?
Wil u stil treat me eat once u got yr first pay?
Sigh..
I'm tired.Dont know why.Just tired.Mentally,physically.
When u're outside enjoying having fun.did i pop out in yr mind?doubt so.

I've come to know things that are very important. I've come to know all these days i've been heartaching tts y my life have been in such a way.But i dont know how to stop it from aching.
I really got no idea. Sigh. i shall remain lonely. Its better dis way. Pple ending up being with me
wil come to no good. even my baby. All along i've been aching cuz i miss the 120506 baby. Til now i totally dont know whois this girl anymore. where r u? Til i'm jus someone she wish to forget so hard n can jus sway me away from the words of her friends. Where's my baby? The one that wil share everything treat me as her no.1 in her heart.even an ant bite her.she wil also sms to complain to me. jus wishes that i sayang her.do u know i've been so lonely without u ma brenda yeo(120506)? wil u stil come back? sigh..I'm jus someone that she is willing to let go to gain more friends.i'm jus someone that have been left out.sigh.......
Walking aimlessly thru the night. jus hope whateva i bought can reach her. Thou her physical presence is stil here.but i can no longer feel her. i'll jus wait for 1 day when she totally 4gets abt me. its time i let go too....& i know she's trying hard. My heart can continues to ache til den.
i'll suffer dis everyday alone just to let u lead yr happy life without me...........


*God.All these years i've never pray anything for myself.
All these years my every praying has xiangting.
I hope u stil continue to hear my prayers.
Please.Tq.Tts all i hope for.



I'm tired. I jus wish to sleep.
I heartache is not becuz i've lost her but to know e truth abt you.
written on 7:57 PM

Had a fun day since morning.Thx nick.For acc me e whole day.
Met up with nick's fren also. HAHA. So fun all with their own car.
I'll get mine soon too & join u guys =)
Sad.My clearance was not approved yet. but nbm.its jus 3mths away from this sad ground
I can make it =)

Bt still. I know no matter what i say now. It doesnt matter u anymore
N i'm trying to accept it.
I shall stay in my own world for e remaining days.
I'll nvr hope tt u wil eva come holding my hand & cal me laogong agn.
U belong to others now tc =)

Night is here. I think no one know how i'm feeling.
No one..& i mean no one.........
Hope i can jus slp peacefully......
U no longer care yet u stil act as if u do..sigh..why?
I shld hv realised.My life has become lonely frm now.
written on 9:59 PM

Last goodbye.
I look normal on e outside but deep inside my heart or when i'm alone
I cant just stop questioning myself by asking
Where exactly are u.............?
written on 8:45 AM

Probably my last entry.
Somethings just cant be forgotten.

Can u really not think of me when u sees....

Mac bfast?
Kfc bfast?
pizzahut?
carrot cake?
sausage?
ham & egg?
rice with nothing but jus simply soup?
spagetti?
sweet popcorn instead of salty?
sprite? (Xue bi)
Domo?
samuel?
your bed?
those bears on yr bed?
bus 197?
bus 222?
sg flyer?
老地方?
popeyes?
arnold's chicken?
skim?
cone ice-cream?
h81?
playgrnd?
swing?
guys wearing white top?
etc....(i'm sure u know better then i do)

Those places we had our fun meals?? our TAN JIA session?

When u ever step into orchard road n take a stroll wont my shadow appear jus bside u?
When u ever step into a cinema to catch a movie wont u be thinking i'm seating bside u?
When u're shopping wont u hope u're holding my arm?
When u're slping at night.wont u feel i'm jus bside u too?
When u're walking wont u hope tt i'm e one behind u shooting pearl?
When u're alone wont u hope i'm e one to be silly to make u smile?

If u ever go KL,Malaysia,Genting wont u think about our time there?How we walk around eat around as if there was only e two of us? the promises we made?
If u ever go Petaling wont u remember the model car u kip please me to buy for u?
Wont u remember the fishpond we make our wishes?
Dont u wish to know what my wishes was?or that pond jus didnt realised my wishes.
wont u remember how we enjoy our ikan-bilis?
The comment we argued abt the pagoda?
When u spent your each year bdae, your yearly Chinese new year,wont u think of how i used to follow u?
Wont u hope a silly boy wil ever hold a heartshape standing outside yr door........??
Wont u hope when u shout "dear" i'm e one replying u?
Wont u hope that silly boy wil always stands beside u no matter how u scold him & angry him?
even til u did smth that u think let him down?
Wont u hope that silly boy will always show u how much he love u?by being softhearted times & times agn? til he has hurt himself so badly yet he dont mind.
the bits n pieces of those silly quarrels we had? & how we patch up each time so sweetly?
a silly boy that wil always offer u places of where to eat? and a bottle of yakult?


All these doesnt cross your mind anymore?? or all along i'm only e one feeling dis way.Til i'm too silly to realised it has been dis way all along.Or all these doesnt bother abt u anymore.........

3yrs ago. a silly yet cant even speak properly and lack of self-confidence boy met a girl. Who he finally got e courage to tell himself. he want to take care of this girl,he wan to bring her go places she had not been b4 during his life time, he want to make her world full of color. He's the one that drag tt girl out of that colorless world into a colorful world. Yet the girl has push that silly boy back to her colorless world.Its him who take care of her all along, how can she now used to how other people take care of her?Maybe all this was jus his own wishful thinkings.....

In his heart,he has been thinking, what has she becomes like what is she now.
Whenever he thinks of it. His tears just cant stop rolling down his chubby cheeks.
Til his heart was so disheartened & slowly dead.........n wishes his life would jus end in an instant.
written on 7:37 AM

Have been spending my time just to watch movies online
So far watch the No.9 tt i failed to catch and once agn G-Force
Do u stil remember G-Force? U were so happy watching that movie.
Hmm...Just to prevent myself staying away from my hp.
Have u eaten yr lunch? Where r u now.....??
Sigh...
can i eat aston's with u agn?
wil u bring me to eat jap food agn?
what u said to me ytd isit true? abt the yogurt thing?
sigh. i bet u dont rmb what u've said aniwae.
I'm just a silly boi.
Its gonna be the 1st time in as many days as we've been tgt we did nt sms each other
Are u used to it?
Are u thinking of me?
I tried to find yr perfume smell when i hug my bolster.
Do u stil rmb the days of our laughter?
Everything u do,see & go. did u see my shadow?
When u're eating chicken wing did u think of me? (U must eat clean ok? if not i'll eat for u ) sigh...

I'm sick of tired of family asking me y i'm at hm during off days y didnt u mit her.
sigh...
I wont allow anyone think badly of u no matter how bad u're
It hurts me. Have not been eating much. Its like heartache overcome my hungryness.
How long can i stand?



*saw 2online user reading my blog. One is me.another one issit u? sigh..


written on 1:04 PM

没有熊猫的日子,第2天

Awaken by thunderstorm at my side & realised everything has ended its stil hard
to take nearly sms her & ask is she stil sleeping?is her side stil having thunderstorm?or mayb she has alr went out wit her frens yet agn. How i wish we once again lie down tgt n see stars
shining up in the sky. Yr fav isnt it? Everytime u see stars u will "wa so nice" U're always full of emotion. Tts y light up a silly boi's life with no emotions at all.wil we ever eat ice cream agn? Or m i jus sum1 u wan den u come dn wn jus kip it aside?

Tml is sun yet my off day. What should i do? or shld say what CAN i do?
Wil i received her sms again one day? or she wil disappear from my life 4eva
The next time i saw her maybe she already has another guy standing bside her
Wil she asked me out tomolo? again i'm lying to myself. sigh..

Alot things went thru my mind when i'm sleeping last night. Do i really love her?
After what she did & what she say and her motive most impt her main reason for gifing up this relationship. i'm really confused.Even xiaofei say she abit not like last time that brenda ping is better. Isit really tt way? xiaofei? Let time to tell me my real ans dis time. Have decided if rong cal/sms me tomolo. I wil go this time. Til now i m still thinking for her. Only myself know what is that.

Anyway, have a date with xiaofei next sat. N soon we wil conquer our hse here the MULTISTORY Carpark. HAHAHAHA. Only we know what we gonna do. Gng work later. its gonna be a tough night. But no matter what. I think i have my ways of stopping it. Tt promise i made her last night. She nvr reject @ all.Makes me even cfm she's leaving dis time. Staring at my hp n found out its stil so dead makes my heart sank each time. Let time heals me.......



you say u wil come back if u love me? will u really come back?
u say u left to change 4 e better? have u change? or are u jus lying to me yet u're alr giving up?
Mayb 1 day yr feelings towards me is not tt strong anymore i'll know everything frm u.
Am i really the guy tt u love most in dis life?
你还爱我吗？
好想再一次对你说你是我的女人。。。
written on 10:13 AM

I will just have to accept her lies from now.
She told me she will be back.But i can feel deep in her heart
She already dont need me as a bf anymore thru her sms & words.
I will just have to lie to myself yet again..She stil loves me.
written on 10:19 PM

i have promise u what i wil promise.
for once i wil show u promise are meant to be promise.
I can only stare at my phone everyday now.
How i wish i can sms u agn telling u "dear i'm on my way to work le u leh?"
How i wish every morning was your good morning sms.
How i wish i can sms u every morning aft my night shift "Dear i'm home jia you for work ok?"
How i wish u can wave goodbye to me wheneva i sent u hm aft our meetings
How i wish u can hold my hands and walk ECP with me again
How i wish u can tel me u're sleeping wish me for a goodnite kiss
written on 4:28 PM

没有熊猫的日子,第1天

Finally its a new chap of my life.
I've been complaining to you during these 3years.
Now its time i complain to my blog.
Thanks for letting me know how much i love you.
Yes we may never go where we want to & spent time like we've always been
i can really save $ from now.No more $2 salary.
No more worries abt her sms-ing me without me replying n she bian zhui
Have to let go already.

Alright.Jus came back from nearby to settle some things
Pass by thomson plaza,& pass by e playground behind where me & her play swing
And a night when she cried on my shoulder to ask me take her back
Yes i agreed.There was really nice memories there.
Bought kfc back. But jus left it on e table.
Know what? i saw PAN LING LING & Her Husband.
I whisper to myself. "dear,u wan eat yr shrooms burger?" silly isnt it?
Like kena some love poison like that.

Went NTUC help sis buy mash potato. Cause she cant have solid food for these few days
Everything i saw is also mushroom type. got so qiao meh?
Life will be hard to live on from now on. But. i know i have to.
She has her own life. She prefers her current life. With frens no bf.
I shall respect her decision.
I realised i even love her til i dont mind abt her past anymore.Not even abit.
I just wish if she comes back one day i'm there. so she wont be lonely anymore.
Yes XXP is right. i am jus trying to protect her too much til i make myself so xinku

XXP: look at her, u say she sad, bt she stil can go out n enjoy u down here cry she know meh?at night u cry til slp. she also wont know also cant feel.Did she auto asked u to meet or go out aft u brk? No lor. The one she thought of is her frens.Why?She already intend to use her frens to 4get u.Y b so silly?

ME: *Silence(Bt actually,my heart broke agn)

XXP: aiya,dont know what to say u lar,console u til tot u ok le.den afterawhile
u agn shield her. I in sch also pek cek. U dn nit so shang xin lar, when time flies, u think she wil still remember u meh?the feeling wont be there alr.so dont think she'll come back.

Y does this XXP always have to be so str8..Cannot see pple heart alr break meh.
Sigh...Afterall she's e one tt makes me understand whats true love. Thou those sms i sent her she nvr reply i know what i said hits her heart. Tts y she dont wan to reply telling me its true to prevent me from being more sad. sigh.

I'm always wondering,does our memories not enuf to bind ur tgt ma?
Mayb what she wants is me to get out of her life.but she jus cant say it out.
i think for a very long time.i wont watch movie or eat out.
By e time i think i'm drifting away from this world.(ok lar.don say world, SG jiu hao)
Now is only work,home SLEEP.

Recently,i've been chasing this 93.3fm story telling drama.Really touching
Its call dno what "hai you ai" de. Its abt one family wit a kids with smth disablity or smth. very touching.
Will u miss calling me dear? or u have not realised tt u alr lost 1?


As pple say,truth is always cruel.Yes i think its time for me to leave.
written on 11:47 AM

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