.Wednesday, June 17, 2009 Y
i suppose this is the 3rd day? Things happen tat fast. til i cant even blive myself.
i'm alr dont know what to say.i also dont wish to say what has happen.Those that know wish to comment no matter is good or bad can do as.my tag board is just beside.
but all i can say. its my fault.Pple keep telling me "aimson forget la,she so heartless alr" but no one knows the exact story. Its me who caused her being what you pple say heartless..
But have to act tough infront of dad,mom & sis. Plus RC collegues.but lucky i stil have my own room to make me myself. its hard.but thats all i can do now. i'll be blogging more often. as she always say i did not blog.now i've plenty of times but cause of her i've been myself yet agn. Frens keep asking me "eat smth la,dont eat later she come back u die how" but really cant eat jiu shi cant eat ma. eating while tearing u pple try lo. see food eat few mouth feel like vomitting.Today mom cook my fav. but i eat few piece i stop.sorry mom,seeing ur face so sad aft i stop eating i'm sorry. amazing thing is i cant even finish a fillet-o-fish. haha
i wont change a single thing in this blog. no one wil ever change. Its been like that and wil always be like that. I know you pple must be laughing at me. when she's gone then u come and complain.Ya..i shld not even think of that plan.
Leave is coming and i'm gng on a short trip probably myself ba. This trip is actually with her. as hotel already booked before things happen so have to go.
yup thanks everyone for being so caring when i'm down this few days and RC pple for making me happy always trying to joke around and make me get involves in your conversation.but that wil only make me more sad. but anyway thanks pple!
i'm just getting & feeling what i deserved.she've gone thru all these for 3yrs. But me merely 3 days. My pain wil never be compared to hers.
Just hope she will be happy from now on. think she will. she's the girl i saw 3yrs back again. memories will be kept. Like how we share one psp playing bursting out in laughter. Lastly GOD, pls tc of her for me. If anything were to fall on her.pls fall on me. As she've been praying for me this way before.Its my turn to take over her. shall blog once i reach home after work tomolo again...tata..
written on 1:21 AM
